||[Jun. 11th, 2009|08:48 pm]
V. E. "Veltzeh" Lehkonen
Kim is a character of mine. Ey is the oldest original human character I have. However, ey wasn't always the same.
The first and very raw version of Kim was a girl I called Tanya. I chose Tanya as the name because I vaguely knew a person at school whose name was Tanja and I liked the name. Tanya was an action girl who did stuff with young Wolverine and Maverick because I found those two characters very cool. I might have made her like she was because I didn't really like any of the women in the X-Men comics that much. Either way, I truthfully wanted the character to be a horrendous Mary Sue, but because I knew that Mary Sues were usually bad even without knowing the concept of Mary Sue back then, I gave her some more humanly aspects as well as traits that don't fit me at all. I don't even think she was a mutant in that very raw form. I don't remember much at all about Tanya. She, Wolverine and Maverick were hanging around with adults in a military base, and that was it. I must've been 10 or 11.
The next version made sense and I haven't even forgotten it at all. I got excited about X-babies after reading that X-Men comic where Kitty rescues the X-babies from their creator, Mojo. So, I made a whole tiny X-Men world where all the X-Men were kids and Xavier was the only adult. I learned only much later that Marvel had a similar thing going as well. And there I inserted the next version of Kim, who by now was called Kim. She was quite a lot like Tanya due to the Mary Sue issues, but younger and a mutant. Her mutant power was making rainbow-colored force fields. Don't laugh before you hear that they were rainbow-colored because I'm a physics geek and figured that they must bend light in a funny way and thus create that color spray. Okay, now you may laugh at my geekery.
Like Tanya, this Kim had brown hair and green eyes. Just like me.
Later, when I had Kim2 grow into a teenager, it seems I didn't have her use her powers. At all. I don't know why. I might have decided that her powers were something else because force fields are kind of boring, but I really can't remember.
However, I reminded myself of a drawing I made. It was a portrait of all the versions of Kim I had thought up in 2002 and earlier, pretty much exactly seven years ago. I looked at it a few days ago and didn't recognize the last version. That was because the last version isn't Kim anymore, it's a new Tanya who got a personality separate of Kim. That Tanya evolved from the second version of Kim.
The third version of Kim is very recognizable as Kim. There I decided, what the hell, I'll just make a huge Mary Sue anyway. And so I did. It happened on the 21st of June in 1999 – I have proof. Since Mary Sues enter the scene with a lengthy description, I shall also do so. Keep in mind that I never really write real descriptions, so anything longer than a sentence is a miracle. Kim3 had black hair that stood up a little like Wolverine's. A lot of people say that Kim's got Wolverine's hair, but for me it's untrue, because I don't draw Wolverine's hair that way and the physical dimensions are totally different. I do admit they look kind of similar, and many X-Men artists, especially nowadays, draw Wolverine's hair like I draw Kim's. I chose black for the hair color because I thought black hair was neat and cool. I live in Finland, where everyone has more or less light hair. Only tourists and immigrants and their kids have truly black hair. Kim3 had dark blue eyes and black eyeballs. The black eyeball thing I got from Gambit. It looked so cool. Kim3 was an Amerindian, with a proper nose, red complexion, tall and sinewy body and for extra weirdness, had a mirrored organ system (heart on the right side, liver on the left, etc.). Ey was a mutant and eir powers were telepathy, agility and enhanced healing. And ey was truly GENDERLESS! At that time, genderless meant sexless; I'd learn the difference between sex and gender only way later, and not knowing the difference cost me a lot of my life to be honest. Someone really should have explained that to me.
Anyway, that was the third version of Kim. Ey still exists in the X-babies fan comic world, though uncomfortably, since I angsted a hell of a lot when I drew the picture series about eir life with the X-babies.
It's probably harder to tell that Kim versions from three and up are Mary Sues because they're so weird. My understanding of ideal, awesome and cool is different from most people's, I suppose. Nevertheless, even though Kim's roots lie in the concept of Mary Sue, ey has come a long way from that.
The fourth version of Kim was created in September of 1999 unless I'm grossly mistaken about this one picture here. This Kim was not just an X-kid anymore; I made up an alternate Marvel universe where the X-Men didn't really exist. I call that universe THOH1. I also made up another character, Shawn, to be Kim's friend. Wolverine and Maverick were around again, but they seemed to have lost their coolness because they couldn't like Kim4 the way I wanted. Complicated, eh? Shawn was small and nonphysical but still fairly brave.
I gave Kim4 a twin brother and called him Kenny. He didn't really change Kim4, except that since he was mute, Kim4 had to be a little noisier. I also then gave Shawn a twin sister who couild be Kenny's love interest. Not too long after that, I gave Kim4 and Kenny a cousin called Kenya. Those three are the ones who apparently always look the same.
I was once sitting in the car in a dark parking lot in Lielahti, waiting for my dad to come back. I had an intensely emotional idea there, probably due to the climate. It wasn't really emotional at all, but I have no other way to describe it. It had depth. The idea was about Kim's adulthood (I think this was for the fourth version, since I was probably 13 or 14), and in was very bleak. The only image I have left is that of Kim looking through a school window while the weather is similar to the one I was sitting in. It's impossible to say why that idea was so intense. I wanted to write something about it back then, but thought that I would only ruin it and it would never be as good as I imagined it, so I never wrote anything. I have no idea where that would really have fitten anyway.
The fifth version of Kim grew up and had a vague future, though I really didn't know what ey should have been. At this point, I was spewing characters all over the place and ended up with over 200 of them, just for this one story. It was still an alternate Marvel universe. At this point I was very interested in a Kim "clone" I called Kymtzie, and a trio of literal clones, one of whom was Tikekean and resembled Kim a lot. Tikekean has since developed eir own personality, but Kymtzie hasn't been as fortunate. Kim5 didn't have a remarkable personality.
Then, many years passed while I was in upper secondary school and the THOH universe underwent a lot of small changes, including changing Kenny's name to Kovetri, Kenya's to Kydre and then giving Kydre a twin brother, Kinian. One of the bigger ones was breaking all ties it might have had with Marvel universes. It was mostly because I was reading the story and wondering why I called this guy Logan when he obviously just wasn't really Logan anymore. There are still mutants and other similar things, and I'm wondering whether I should change it even more. I had a plan that I should call the mutants something else than mutants, but I doubt whther that's a good idea. Anyway, still later I changed the whole world and gave it a lot of alternate history. Kim didn't really change there, and I think that the sixth version is the current one. I'll have to see whether I make any changes, but probably not.
The first versions of Kim weren't interesting, to tell the truth, they were just there to be cool and so on. Kim6 has actual, noticeable and intended character development. I'm not sure how well I have written that out (or will write). My intention was to write here how Kim had developed through the versions, but it seems I don't have that much to say after all. Dangit.